I lost my voice

I argue with my dad just now..
now ..i totally lost my voice..
that feeling is hurt when your family showed their ` u- are-cheating-me` faces..
Dad just kept scolding me non-stop..
i cant submerge my emotions..and i`m just like a Crazy people shouting all around ..
Great ..this is my first time being rude to them ..
sorry,I cant control myself..
since i had been stay in puchong for 3 years...
i get alot hurt but i resort to keeping inside my heart ..the reason is i dont want to make trouble..
i wish that i can go back my hometown stay with my grandpa and grandma ..
at least,they care me more ..
they give me warm ..
and they wont put their anger on me ..
that is just a dream ..it wont happen ..
compare with now..
stay with my step-mom and dad..
they always fighting..
care themself more than me..
both also emotional..
God gave me this complicated family..
sometimes i really cant accept the way my step-mom treat me ..
all the good things is just for her own children..
what about my bro and me?
Dog life is the best description..
she destroyed my family..

i really hate her..
but now she can control everything in my house..
God, its so UNFAIR!